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2013: The Year Ahead.

Before I start, I feel I should point out that my health has picked up a lot over the past couple of days. I really noticed the difference yesterday. Much less pain, brainfog not so bad. It rather suggests that the new medication combo was the issue. I am now taking said combo every third day only, until further notice.

I do not feel pessimistic. That's a good start, right?

Moving house in February: I'm going to make sure it happens with the least stress and grief for all those involved, including me. The main person I'm worried about in this regard is Big Sister, although I also have to consider the problem of relying too much on my social circle and burning people out. Trouble is, that makes her the default fall-back person. And it's not like she can't burn out too. I'm honestly not sure how to do this (by definition, it's what being disabled is all about) but I have to try.

I am moving somewhere permanent. I will once again have my own garden.


Tiger is old. As of a few months ago, she's been restricted to kidney diet dry food, which was okay at first but now she's losing interest in it. I've been wetting it down to encourage her - I think it strengthens the smell of the attractants. It's working, for now. But I don't think it will be too long before it's a case of feeding her whatever she'll eat and enjoying what time she has left... When I imagine what 2013 will be like, this one always pops up


Although medical science keeps saying "but wait, there's more!" my endocrinologist does say that by mid2013, I really need to be off the prednisolone (or at 5 mgs or below) even if this involves rather drastic surgery. The latest medication combo might enable me to do this, thus avoiding/delaying said surgery. But we've got until mid-year. Otherwise I will have to make the most difficult step I think I have ever had to make. Not the hardest thing I've ever endured (I hope), but the hardest step to take. Most of the really tough experiences I've faced are of the sort that simply happen as a consequence of living. They are the sort of experiences that happen when they happen, not ones where you have to choose the moment in which to jump.


I have decided that blowing all my spoons on drawing and painting is okay"> In the same way that for a few years I'd break myself by sitting up half the night blogging, then knitting for a few years after that, I'm now giving myself permission to do the same with visual stuff. I just want to see where it gets me.


Wheat free again. Probably in a couple of weeks, as an experiment that will go for a couple of months.


Getting paperwork in order: when I moved house I changed my system and it has not worked. This might sound trivial, but it's about having the right little paperwork trolley in the right place, with the right number of in/out trays and useful stationery immediately to hand. (In fact, this is probably something quite achievable.)


Moving North has worked on a number of levels, and will continue to do so. Social reasons are at the top of the list. (Gardening reasons aren't. The soil over here is appalling. Serious clay. I may have to replace gardening with pottery.)


I hope to see more of my friends, and to reciprocate more and be more proactive. I hope to strengthen new RL friendships and networks, and continue to expand on these a bit. How this works on a day-to-day, week-to-week level is going to take more thought. After all, I really want to go *out* more. Out! To see stuff, and to try and find that party that I'm sure is going on just around the corner...


There's other stuff too, like actually make a useful contribution to the world... but now we're getting well into the realm of "what I would do if I could reliably expect more from myself than being able to brush my teeth twice a day" territory. Time to stop.


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Jan. 1st, 2013 10:56 am (UTC)
... the part where you appear to be feeding your sister dry kidney diet food might be why she is at risk of being burned out ;)


I think there are some half-sentences missing somewhere? There's a paragraph that starts with "on a number of levels, and will continue to do so."

Brainfog sucks :( I feel so lucky that my thinking is less worse now!!

Happy 2013.
Jan. 1st, 2013 11:02 am (UTC)
Heh thanks. Fixed, I think. It's the thing where I used a cut as the start of a sentence. Really doesn't work well.

Happy 2013 to you too.
Jan. 2nd, 2013 04:46 am (UTC)
Damn, I wish I'd seen that!
Jan. 1st, 2013 01:40 pm (UTC)
Happy 2013 - and may the move be not too difficult. Once you've moved, you will be able to set up all your systems from scratch, which has got to be a good thing. (I am so much in favour of this because if I get a job then I have to move and if I don't then I have to get rid of books and I can't fathom getting rid of books.)

It does sound as if you've got more good ahead of you than bad, which is a rather nice balance.

I did the coming off cortisone thing and it really does make a positive difference long term (why I was able to do that PhD, for instance), but short term it's a headache (just one of the many things it is, in fact). If you need someone to complain to about it or on whose shoulder to cry, I'm your person for as long as you need me, for I've been there and done that. I miss having symptoms masked by it, I admit...

I think blowing all your spoons on something you love doing is an excellent idea. I'm doing the same (but not drawing and painting - I am so bad at these things it's laughable).
Jan. 1st, 2013 04:26 pm (UTC)
The decision making about the surgery is a tough one...
but a new house and garden for you!
That trumps everything else.
I expect photos. Lots of them!
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