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What Am I Looking For?

God only knows.

There's the sheer desire of proximity. Of opening up and excercising a part of me that is otherwise left constrained and festering in the dark.

There's the tangible proof of my oft-claimed right to be wanted.

Although I don't know if it's a right, or a happy luxury. Icing on the cake.

~~~

My own desire doesn't always please me. Nor does my wish for tangible proof of its importance. Life would be simpler without those feelings.

~~~

But we don't get much of a shot at these things. Soon enough, we're all finished and gone. Our elements keep going, but they are dispersed. That's who we are: a brief mix of chemicals. Once that mix dissolves, so does desire.

That's why it matters that we make the most of ourselves and each other.

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dragonsally
Jul. 17th, 2013 08:26 am (UTC)
But we don't get much of a shot at these experiences. Soon enough, we're all finished and gone. Our elements keep going, but they are dispersed. That's who we are: a brief mix of chemicals.

That's why it matters that we make the most of ourselves and each other.


I think you just summed life up to perfection.
escarpe
Jul. 17th, 2013 08:34 am (UTC)
Amen
liddle_oldman
Jul. 17th, 2013 04:21 pm (UTC)
I resented and loathed my feelings of desire, but, now that they're dead, I sort of miss them...

And I sincerely appreciate the desire to be wanted, in its various incarnations. That's a big part of the "pursuit of happiness" you may have heard of.

I send you sympathetic internet squeezes!
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