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The thing in my arm tomorrow.

I've done enough for today. Not much, I'm not without capacity to do more. But the feeling has gone, the inspiration has subsided.

I'd love to go to bed and call it done, but I won't sleep. It's only 6PM.

I'd love to care for a while longer, but I don't think I can.

On the plus side, of course, is the fact that I'm bored - this is a sign of better capacity, regardless of what my blood tests say. I've got good stuff done, there's plenty more I could do, but the spirit isn't there.


Tomorrow when I wake up it will be early, and I will be going to hospital to be surrounded by people and noise and ghastly daytime TV. I'll be connected to a pole with a drip in my arm and regular checks to make sure I'm not going into anaphylactic shock. It's okay, they know what to do if it happens, so as long as they do their jobs right I'll be fine. But I'd rather avoid the situation altogether.

Once that is done, I'll go somewhere else in the hospital for a blood test, then somewhere else again for an x-ray of my foot. I'll be exhausted when I come home and achey the day after and at least one more day after that. And the day after that, I will hopefully start to recover.

I'll take all the distractions I can fit in my bag, earplugs and eyemask too. But the tedium is oppressive and it will take all my efforts to enjoy them or at least ignore the pole and the drip and the thing in my arm.


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Dec. 12th, 2013 07:20 am (UTC)
Yeah, you really have to gear up for these things. All that management is worth it--but it does suck energy, mental and physical. Hope the procedure goes as well as possible, and recovery, too.

Good luck with everything.
Dec. 12th, 2013 09:37 am (UTC)
Thankyou! And by this time tomorrow I'll be home, and probably fast asleep. So that's something.
Dec. 12th, 2013 09:32 am (UTC)
I hope the day goes smoothly. Blaring tvs in waiting rooms - not my cup of tea either!
Dec. 12th, 2013 09:36 am (UTC)
Thanks Sal. Yeah, this TV is a real pain. It's in the infusion room, on all day and the nurses like to pop in and out to watch it every now again.

No kidding! I've tried turning it off a couple of times when it's either just me or me and one other person who doesn't like it either, and they come back in and turn it on again. Aiiieee!
Dec. 12th, 2013 09:50 am (UTC)
that is very annoying. Silence would be much nicer.
Dec. 12th, 2013 04:00 pm (UTC)
The TV would drive me crazy. I suppose they think of it as entertaining for the patients...and for the staff!

I hope it's gone easily for you...or as easily as possible.
Dec. 12th, 2013 04:56 pm (UTC)
Sending endurance and survival vibes!
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